A lot to be thankful for from the Year 2017

To my year of everything,

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry I was disappointed when you came.

I’m sorry I didn’t show much attention to you when everyone was celebrating

I’m sorry I did not even bother to be thankful that you gave me another chance.

I’m sorry that I’ve taken for granted all the lessons you were trying to teach me.

I’m sorry that I was too eager to get over you and start all over again.

Lastly, I’m sorry that I only realize now when it’s almost over.

You have brought a humble beginning to my years of existence, you know what they say,

People appreciates what they’ve lost but not what they have.

I was blinded by my dreams, got too ambitious and entirely forgot if I fully lived you.

Could you blame?

You threw me surprises that are beyond my imagination.

I could have sworn if I get a penny everytime something happens to me I’d be a millionaire by now.

All your ups and downs,

moments of weakness,

disappointments and expectations,

everything that I went through,..

I get over it.  Didn’t I?

The days when everything was falling apart, when everything seems wrong, the days that I thought there was no way out… I made it, didn’t I?

And I’m still in that moment, I will go through it again for sure, there will be much bigger problems but I’d like to take this moment to thank you.

Thank you, because you have made me a stronger person. Fierce. Vulnerable and even more appreciative that I will ever be.

You kept in the ground so that I could appreciate what I’m stepping on. I’m so grateful for that.

I’m thankful for the love of my family, you kept them safe and healthy. That is even enough for me. The gift of friendship that is continuously growing. New friends that will be with me for more years to come and the good old friends that have been with me since day one. These are the things that matters the most. I could have not lasted a day without them, so thank you.

Perhaps, you are the eye opener, you boldly showed me my worth and what I deserve. In my search to a true meaning of happiness you unveil that it does not come easy, that I have to work for it every single time and most importantly that it does not come from anyone but right within me.

2017, I thank God the most for an extraordinary life. What a blessing it has been to be alive and be loved everyday.

You have been a blessing to everyone, I hope whoever is reading this is feeling the same.


Love always,







Just because it’s not happening does not mean it won’t happen

Before I make this whole set of drama. I’d like to greet you a Merry Christmas and probably advance Happy New Year.

Might take another three months or even more before I post something again. Nonetheless, wherever you are and you might be, I hope you are having a wonderful holiday time with your family and love ones.

I decided to write this not because it’s almost New Year and being sentimental and all will be relevant but rather because I think all of us in early 20’s get this feeling of sudden disappointment in life.

To my friends, who think their life is not happening the way they wanted to.

To my colleagues and acquaintances, I see your tweets and posts.

To anyone whose life feels like a joke. Might as well make a show out of it and we will be there to give you applause while waving the cutout that says “SAME”.

All I’m saying is that. We all feel the same and everyone goes through it at this certain time of our lives. It is completely normal to not know what to do, to be completely clueless and utterly afraid. But believe me. It will happen. Not in a way that you expect it but in a surprising and maybe a life-changing way. Life is full of surprises after all. Hold on to it.

Just because everyone is getting their dream job, getting engage and married does not ever mean your moment will not come. No one has it all figured out. It takes time and a long way home of painful turn-downs and questionable decisions. What matters the most is what are you going to do about it? Be sad? Feel miserable? Or you’re gonna go out there and make it happen for yourself and at least try?

Think about it.

Being afraid will not take you places.




Okay lang, mahal ko yung sarili ko.

Sabi nila matapang daw ako. Sabi nila ang lakas daw ng loob ko. Sabi nila bilib daw sila sakin. Hindi. Mahal ko lang yung sarili ko.

It’s been five months now since I moved here in Dubai. Can’t beleive how time flies so fast like this, the last thing I remember I was at the airport hallway, carrying a yellow envelope on my right hand, green  suitcase on the other; waving goodbye to my beloved Dad. Looking back now, five months? Not even enough for people to say how brave I am. But I appreciate it, the thing is. I’m not. I’ve been back and forth for so many times, torn between Yes I wanted this and No this is not really want I want. Most heartbreaking part is, I accepted it in the end. Because you know what? I love myself like that.

Many would disagree but all I can say is. Kapag mahal mo yung sarili mo, alam mo kung anong makakapag pasaya sayo. Kung mahal mo yung sarili mo, hindi ka mag da-doubt sa sarili mo na kaya mo. Kung mahal mo yung sarili mo, kahit ilang beses kang nagpabalik-balik sa decision mo, alam mo pa rin yung deserve mo.

Hindi naman mahirap gawin. Kailangan mo lang tanggapin na may mga bagay na hindi mo kayang gawin, at may mga bagay na ikaw lang ang may kaya. Lalo na ang tanggapin mo na may oras lahat ng bagay. Kung para sayo, para sayo. Hindi ibig sabihin na hindi para sayo hindi mo deserve. Ibig sabihin lang may mas deserving ka. Saang aspeto ba? Sa work man yan, kaibigan or love life. Minsan kasi tayo pag hindi natin nakukuha yung isang bagay feeling natin pinagkakait na. Baka naman kasi dapat paghirapan lang bago mapasayo.

Okay lang. Basta alam mo sa sarili mo, tulad ng sinabi ko kanina. Alam mo yung deserve mo.

Eto simplehan lang natin, mga bagay na dapat mo sigurong marealize, okay lang mag disagree ka: As long as nagpapakatotoo ka 

1. Accept yourself. Una sa lahat, tanggapin mo muna yung sarili mo. Bago ang lahat, ikaw yan. Yan ka na. Isa pa, wala ng iba. Ilang beses pa ba dapat ulitin na kung ano mang pagkululang ang meron ka, tanggapin mo kasi that makes you YOU.

2. Don’t depend your happiness on others. Isang pagkakamali yung sinasabi nila na “Ikaw lang makakapag pasaya sakin.Kalokohan. Nakakapag laro ka nga ng barbie mag isa noon masaya ka naman di ba? Nakuha mo pang mag bahay-bahayan kahit may nagpapanggap lang na tatay di ba? Bakit nung tumanda ka kinalimutan mo na nagawa mong mapasaya yung sarili mo kahit mag isa ka? Bakit all of a sudden yung pagiging masaya mo depende na sa iba? Point is, kaya mo naman. Baka kasi ayaw mo lang.

3. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Baka masyado mong pine-pressure yung sarili mo sa expectations ng iba. Wag. Wag mong hayaan na malamangan ka ng “disappointing ka” sa “masaya kami para sayo”. 

4. Give yourself a break. Okay lang minsan mag breakdown ka. Umiyak ka. Magpaka subsub ka sa sakit. Mag lupasay ka. Okay lang. May mga moments talaga na gusto mo lonely lang yung feeling mo the whole day, or kung minsan trip mo lang mag paka-sad sa buhay. Naiintindihan kita. Pero, again, deserve mo yung happiness. Breath ka lang. Maybe these are bad days but remember this is not a bad life.

5. Believe in yourself. Yes. Wala ng iba. Wala ng ibang tutulong sayo kundi ikaw. Sa totoong buhay, ikaw at ikaw lang talaga ang makakatulong sa sarili mo. Paniwalaan mo yung kakayanan mo, tanggapin mo yung kahinaan mo. Work hard sa mga bagay na gusto mo talaga, pag gusto may paraan. Pag binigay mo yung puso mo sa isang bagay make sure na kaya mo yung bigat. Sa totoo lang wala ng mas sasarap sa feeling na sobrang hirap pero nagawa mo, kasi nag tiwala ka sa sarili mo. Iba yon. Yun yung hindi matutumbasan ng kahit na ano. Yung nasa baba ka na, down na down na. Pero alam mo sarili mo na kaya mo at magagawa mo.

Hindi ko alam, kasi hindi naman lahat tayo parehas ng situation. Para sakin lang ha baka there’s someone somewhere who’s going  through the same thing that I did. 

Hoping at some point, it might help. I know some of my friends will. I’m here for you, no matter how big a situtaion is; life must go on and trust that everything will fall into places one day. 

Share your thoughts. I’d be happy to know what you think.

All the love that I could give,

Lmse 💖