Okay lang, mahal ko yung sarili ko.

Sabi nila matapang daw ako. Sabi nila ang lakas daw ng loob ko. Sabi nila bilib daw sila sakin. Hindi. Mahal ko lang yung sarili ko.

It’s been five months now since I moved here in Dubai. Can’t beleive how time flies so fast like this, the last thing I remember I was at the airport hallway, carrying a yellow envelope on my right hand, green  suitcase on the other; waving goodbye to my beloved Dad. Looking back now, five months? Not even enough for people to say how brave I am. But I appreciate it, the thing is. I’m not. I’ve been back and forth for so many times, torn between Yes I wanted this and No this is not really want I want. Most heartbreaking part is, I accepted it in the end. Because you know what? I love myself like that.

Many would disagree but all I can say is. Kapag mahal mo yung sarili mo, alam mo kung anong makakapag pasaya sayo. Kung mahal mo yung sarili mo, hindi ka mag da-doubt sa sarili mo na kaya mo. Kung mahal mo yung sarili mo, kahit ilang beses kang nagpabalik-balik sa decision mo, alam mo pa rin yung deserve mo.

Hindi naman mahirap gawin. Kailangan mo lang tanggapin na may mga bagay na hindi mo kayang gawin, at may mga bagay na ikaw lang ang may kaya. Lalo na ang tanggapin mo na may oras lahat ng bagay. Kung para sayo, para sayo. Hindi ibig sabihin na hindi para sayo hindi mo deserve. Ibig sabihin lang may mas deserving ka. Saang aspeto ba? Sa work man yan, kaibigan or love life. Minsan kasi tayo pag hindi natin nakukuha yung isang bagay feeling natin pinagkakait na. Baka naman kasi dapat paghirapan lang bago mapasayo.

Okay lang. Basta alam mo sa sarili mo, tulad ng sinabi ko kanina. Alam mo yung deserve mo.

Eto simplehan lang natin, mga bagay na dapat mo sigurong marealize, okay lang mag disagree ka: As long as nagpapakatotoo ka 

1. Accept yourself. Una sa lahat, tanggapin mo muna yung sarili mo. Bago ang lahat, ikaw yan. Yan ka na. Isa pa, wala ng iba. Ilang beses pa ba dapat ulitin na kung ano mang pagkululang ang meron ka, tanggapin mo kasi that makes you YOU.

2. Don’t depend your happiness on others. Isang pagkakamali yung sinasabi nila na “Ikaw lang makakapag pasaya sakin.Kalokohan. Nakakapag laro ka nga ng barbie mag isa noon masaya ka naman di ba? Nakuha mo pang mag bahay-bahayan kahit may nagpapanggap lang na tatay di ba? Bakit nung tumanda ka kinalimutan mo na nagawa mong mapasaya yung sarili mo kahit mag isa ka? Bakit all of a sudden yung pagiging masaya mo depende na sa iba? Point is, kaya mo naman. Baka kasi ayaw mo lang.

3. Don’t be too hard on yourself. Baka masyado mong pine-pressure yung sarili mo sa expectations ng iba. Wag. Wag mong hayaan na malamangan ka ng “disappointing ka” sa “masaya kami para sayo”. 

4. Give yourself a break. Okay lang minsan mag breakdown ka. Umiyak ka. Magpaka subsub ka sa sakit. Mag lupasay ka. Okay lang. May mga moments talaga na gusto mo lonely lang yung feeling mo the whole day, or kung minsan trip mo lang mag paka-sad sa buhay. Naiintindihan kita. Pero, again, deserve mo yung happiness. Breath ka lang. Maybe these are bad days but remember this is not a bad life.

5. Believe in yourself. Yes. Wala ng iba. Wala ng ibang tutulong sayo kundi ikaw. Sa totoong buhay, ikaw at ikaw lang talaga ang makakatulong sa sarili mo. Paniwalaan mo yung kakayanan mo, tanggapin mo yung kahinaan mo. Work hard sa mga bagay na gusto mo talaga, pag gusto may paraan. Pag binigay mo yung puso mo sa isang bagay make sure na kaya mo yung bigat. Sa totoo lang wala ng mas sasarap sa feeling na sobrang hirap pero nagawa mo, kasi nag tiwala ka sa sarili mo. Iba yon. Yun yung hindi matutumbasan ng kahit na ano. Yung nasa baba ka na, down na down na. Pero alam mo sarili mo na kaya mo at magagawa mo.

Hindi ko alam, kasi hindi naman lahat tayo parehas ng situation. Para sakin lang ha baka there’s someone somewhere who’s going  through the same thing that I did. 

Hoping at some point, it might help. I know some of my friends will. I’m here for you, no matter how big a situtaion is; life must go on and trust that everything will fall into places one day. 

Share your thoughts. I’d be happy to know what you think.

All the love that I could give,

Lmse 💖


Hilltop View Weekend Getaway Experience

We might not have a beach in Nueva Ecija but we have this Hilltop View.

It’s no secret in my social media accounts that I am no longer employed and not working with any events. So, basically I have been spending most of my time lately at home or at the gym.

Concerned about the fact that I have not been doing anything extremely ridiculously exciting lately. I decided to organize a vacation with my friends.

Problem is, we don’t know where to go. My friends and I had been planning a summer outing for like ‘I lost count already’, and  it was always a total fail. There goes an endless ‘I can’t come reason’. Suddenly I got tired of it and realized that if I make a reservation or something they would wanna come.

I just need to think of low budget place yet beautiful, not so far yet not so near, not overrated definitely, a place exclusively just for us with a breath taking view. A place that is convenient in short. Now you might probably think where in Nueva Ecija could I find that place. Well, believe me, it’s just around the corner.

Thank God, and shout out to Biyaheng Nueva Ecija for introducing us to Hilltop View Private Resort in Palayan City. As soon as I saw the post I immediately tagged my friends (like what normal people do these days) to see the place. The next thing I know I was looking at this view.

I must say that the place looks really nice and quiet  so perfect if you want to get away from the mad world of city life. Here you can relax and think of nothing but fresh air while you’re sitting in a hammock under the trees looking at the mountains, admiring life at its finest.

We really enjoyed our stay here at Hilltop View, it’s like for the first time in a very long time we forgot out worries, jobs and just had fun like we used to. We’re so glad we made this trip and we are definitely coming back.

For those of you who might ask, how we reserved the place. I found their facebook page and sent them a reservation request immediately, I got a positive response within the day. (I’ll leave all their contact information below)

They have two rooms good for 15 people. Their daily rate is 2800 and 3800 for an overnight stay.

The place will be exclusive for you, an access to their kitchen (they allow cooking), jacuzzi and the best part is they have a cafe-bar inside and of course an over-looking view. (How fetch is that?)

How to get here is easy. You have two options, either you take an ordinary bus or jeep with signages Bongabon/Kapitolyo, fare from Cabanatuan terminal is P25.00.Your dropping  point  is at B.T Torres Street, Brgy. Sapang Buho, Palayan City (there’s a gym across the street). From the street of B.T Torres there are tricycle that will take you to the resort, the fare is 15.00 pesos per person.

Personally, I think the place is great. The idea is you’ll come to a place where you can be silent for a while and have privacy. It’s not fancy but it’s peaceful and that’s something worth paying for.

Thank you for reading. Share it and let’s all help promote Nueva Ecija and its attractions. Comment your thoughts and I’d be happy to read it. CIAO!

All the love,